For years, her Ramadan posts were polished, curated outfits, styled iftars, carefully lit reflections for millions of followers. This year, Rawan Bin Hussain says it will look nothing like that.After what she calls the most difficult year of her life, the UAE-based influencer is marking her first Ramadan following a six-month jail sentence with a public reckoning, one that includes addiction, grief, attempted suicide and what she now describes as an unexpected turning point.Bin Hussain, 29, is among the Gulf’s most recognizable digital personalities, with more than 7 million followers on Instagram and over 700,000 subscribers on YouTube. Known for beauty, fashion and lifestyle content, she has also built a career as an entrepreneur, singer and actor. But in recent weeks, her social media has taken a markedly different tone.In an Instagram post, she revealed: “In November 2024, I was admitted to the ICU for attempted suicide. When the whole world thought I had everything, deep down I was miserable.”She described the period leading up to that moment as one shaped by profound personal loss. “My divorce did damage me, but my mother’s death shattered me. Instead of grieving, I chose substance abuse to numb my feelings. I chose to overtrain as a coping mechanism, exercising for long hours until I got myself injured,” she wrote.Her reflection did not stop there. “I chose to work overtime to keep myself busy so I didn’t have to deal with Rawan. I made friends with the wrong people, I loved the wrong men, I fell into the wrong crowd where I did not belong and it dimmed my light and my heart.”According to several Kuwaiti media outlets last year, Bin Hussain was sentenced to six months in jail and fined Dh20,000 in connection with charges related to public misconduct. In her recent posts, she did not address the details of the case, focusing instead on what the experience forced her to confront internally.“Prison saved my life because I knew my ending would have been tragic. I had to lose everything to realize how blessed I am. I was given another chance at life to rise, to grow and to shine, this time with a different mindset,” she wrote.The shift, she says, will be visible this Ramadan.“This Ramadan, you won’t see me dressing up. I won’t share my looks or my iftars and suhoors the way I used to every year. This year, I want to dedicate Ramadan to Allah, our Creator.”For an influencer whose brand was built on visibility, the decision signals a conscious retreat, at least temporarily, from the performative aspects of social media. Instead of curated content, she is presenting something more personal: accountability, faith and rebuilding after what she describes as a year that dismantled her life.
